I find out that I've a major problem with communicate with people around me. Of course I want someone that can really understand who am i and really can talk anything we like but this connection I hardly find. Im those person can be very quiet when you don't know me or some situation you will saw me alone there. I really don't know how to mix around with people randomly. Its just my problem that I think too much about people characteristic. I often think about how the people feeling when talking to me? Am i a boring-type people or what.... I just prefer to be alone sometimes. I don't feel comfortable to be with someone that always need to find a topic and talk too. And Im too shy to speak it out loud in front of people. I don't like to yell at people so normally my friend will think that Im those shi wen girl.
I really don't know how to show up to people. I hate loneliness and that's make me don't feel good. I don't like to repeat story from 1 person to another person.. My story will end up from the 1st person that I've talk about.
Im always home alone and thats growth me into a silence person. What is true friendship its very hard to find out in my world. My loneliness and shy never get rid of me instead that make think more and begin a unequal emotional girl.
Begin a happy person really need to learn about it. If the person I don't feel comfortable to talk with I will talk less. Because I feel that is not connected in the communication.. Im used to be doing everything by my self. Im Hoping to be a nice person even though Im already nice but for me I don't think it is nice enough...
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