Motivation of doing everything

Ｍｉｓｓ　my long hair already and already. haha But i quite like my hair now. Suddenly have a motivation to begin short hair again.

I like to play with my hair when Im bored. 

Favorite shoe! Soft, thick and elastic shoe are very comfortable. Take note people shoe is very important for our body because we walk a lot a day. If you wearing a not suit ur leg will injure your leg bone. Learn to protect your self*
Nothing to waste that you buy a expensive shoe.  

Photo by me 

Sunflower !

12-12-12 day was gone, world end day was gone, Exam was gone too. What should celebrate now?Merry Christmas!! But my friend are preparing their exam  on that week. Im staying home for my sem break very bored. I always dream to have my own photoshot, can always have pretty dress clothes for every outing, go somewhere that haven't go before. But first my motivation are all down now. Don't have that mood to do those stuff. I know this blog is so dead too because no motivation to upload. Haiz, I always tell people see beside the table using iphone ,ipad , see there every body around 10 out of 8 are using smart phone* Why I still don't get one for myself :(  Me have to earn myself for a thing.  Just wanna go somewhere can relax and out of the social life. I ain't social life. I just like to life on my own world with the one i love.

I always hope for thing because I don't justify with my life. No one will justify their life's too. Who don't hope for the best and get this and that. Sky always raining as usual, start missing bunch of friend out celebrate and play. We can't life without people around us. But the point is people that around us is what kind of true face ,we cant said. People are scary because I dunno are they 2 face characteristic or what. I always just like to stick with those I close with only.

Story book I bought that already abandon aside for long. Without motivation on yourself ,You won't be successfully finish the things.

Happy smile for me :)

Post of You in my blog #1

I name Bunny for him because of his rabbit teeth. I know he still look like monkey sometimes but I do prefer bunny more ! :D

Hey,Bunny!! Had been acting weird lately to you. I know I like to think much and always like to find problem out and acting like I VERYCAREABOUTYOU. Im actually not acting, I do really cares about you as always but just I cant accept that the way you busy around your college and reply slow and short or non-sense. Maybe Im too free or maybe u're too busy. I know these is not good for us that we can't have a normal dating or meeting outside or just have a lovely breakfast/lunch/dinner together often SO we should more appreciate time spending together. But time always passes very fast when we're together. Im just hoping around that I can also have a FULL dating day for our anniversary if it is possible to make it some day... And take plenty of photo and video together so when we are apart of each other I can take out oneof  the photo and feeling thats you always there by my side making me laugh angry and silly.. I do want to be a special ones on this earth to you 

♥♥♥♥

I know it! Life's could not be satisfy for our fulfill and life's always unfair for somebody. It happens on my life's  that I think it is unfair for me that I can't meet my boyfriend often when we are studying in difference college and staying in difference place. Me and my Bf can't have a proper time to shopping ... Sometimes window shopping do work out for some fun thing! Bytheway, don't got me wrong! Im just suggest and not complain-ing here lorh. But sometimes some complain-ing it also good for us because no ones in their relationship can be so peaceful for everything. Maybe at first you can endure about it but time longer it will turns up horrible.. So Im also advice to myself if there is any problem happen,no matter that is small or big problem also must solve it together. 

Yeah, Im agree that couple who went through all the hard time together and they'll still have the strong feeling to each other and never give up easily. I know these is my turn live out all the hard time but I won't easy give up on someone that used to be lovely together. Because it doesn't meant to be any thing if you just broke up some silly problem. I always think peoples who finds their soul mate is a very sweet stuff. 

Hope He will popping up under a table and give me surprise . Surprise would never get bored of it just lead for people to wants more and more. Unfortunately, Im suck making surprise for people. I hope I can also surprise you someday.

Stay happy when you're receiving some sweet msg.But emo when you didn't receive msg from him.

 

  

This is my life

 What is happening in my life? There some picture I wanna share..

How is my nickname come from?
Actually my nickname-Ashley.. Is created by my best friends when I was still standard6. Even since, I never change to any other nickname . They create it to me when I was about to create my own signature. This is all related story . I find out that my own Chinese name was so hard for teacher to pronounce it.

I really don't believe that I actually can memorize our whole body of muscle and bone. Study physiotherapy really let me learn more about human body.. Do you know what is physiotherapy? There are something that I want to emphasize 'Physiotherapy' is not work for massage!

I thought I come to college no need to study Bahasa Melayu, Moral n sejarah... Why...why must i make my life so tough? Recently 1 of a lecturer ask who ever never get 'credit' in Bm need to take BM class again. I really hate BM. I thought i can finally escape from Bahasa Melayu..Tell the true, my bm never pass before from primary till secondary. But of course  i pass on my spm and I was super extreme happy. But now?? I need to aim for my bm to 'credit' already. I don't have confidence seriously.

This is cool that we've a free snowflake!!One of my friend, he is a snowflake king. He eat 2 times a week. Walao... I want to promote here also- Ocha'ryo ! Is green-tea favor and it taste not bad too. Puchong snowflake are more choices to choose.

Here my new uniform. Have to wear it everyday during class ;s not comfortable  to wear also i prefer tee-shirt.

 Bread from 'RT Pastry House' shop call 'Tiger Cheese' ... Quite famous!!Is at -Puchong-

Our previous prime minister. He is cute isn't ? Somehow, Im still think that he look alike with my dad!  

DIY present to my BESTFRIEND. I RARELY DIY something for people. Which can say I never DIY before. This photoframe I did it the day before my friend birthday. Look Doesn't bad right?

 My long hair is getting long and long if i still don't go salon. Since my sister get marriage I also rarely go cut my hair. Because I always get my hair cut with my sister only. Im still thinking do i need to cut short again? or  curl my hair. All my friend ask me to curl it.  Some how i think that is waste money.No idea..

Advantage for long hair that I can tie any style of Braid I like. I admit I very good with tying hair.

Sushi for my family.

Look at my 'body' woah... hahah I just nothing to do.

Oo I freak out when i saw this. Something wrong with my billing. I rarely call people also .I only use to sms only.

Feel in love wearing Long dress. 

Ninja Joe burger shirt. I don't work there ok, I brought it at the shop because i think is special enough. Can't find it at other place.

Very bad Sunburn!  

♥'s

I realize my face always look very reddish. Which i always told my friend that i have a good blood circulation hahah i bullshit.

Nice tattoo... Fake 1 larh. Its just the way to figure it out how is our bone shape look like on our body.

Bicycle Keychain Limited edition!!

Rainbow body...

Happy 10th month gift :) 

Hardly find someone who know the real me

I find out that I've a major problem with communicate with people around me. Of course I want someone that can really understand who am i and really can talk anything we like but this connection I hardly find. Im those person can be very quiet when you don't know me or some situation you will saw me alone there. I really don't know how to mix around with people randomly. Its just my problem that I think too much about people characteristic. I often think about how the people feeling when talking to me? Am i a boring-type people or what.... I just prefer to be alone sometimes. I don't feel comfortable to be with someone that always need to find a topic and talk too. And Im too shy to speak it out loud in front of people. I don't like to yell at people so normally my friend will think that Im those shi wen girl.

   I really don't know how to show up to people. I hate loneliness and that's make me don't feel good. I don't like to repeat story from 1 person to another person.. My story will end up from the 1st person that I've talk about. Im always home alone and thats growth me into a silence person. What is true friendship its very hard to find out in my world. My loneliness and shy never get rid of me instead that make think more and begin a unequal emotional girl.

   Begin a happy person really need to learn about it. If the person I don't feel comfortable to talk with I will talk less. Because I feel that is not connected in the communication.. Im used to be doing everything by my self. Im Hoping to be a nice person even though Im already nice but  for me I don't think it is nice enough...

Life went through many things

Mid term exam finally arrive.Its 18th&19th sep. Each subject only 1 hour. Im still lazy to study for the last minute again. Something is distracting my mind while I study. I don't know how to express out the feeling. Im always home alone. Everyday went to college early in the morning have to reach at 8am when my class suppose to be start at 9am. Everyday 4.30pm after class only can go back home.I need rest about 3 to 4 hour only satisfied for my own time. I think my time is not enough to spent. I used to sleep early around 11pm or before 11pm edi. So really its a problem to go back home study with just an hour free for it.

            I just wish I do very well in my mid term. I know is tough for some subject especially Anatomy& Physiology. Because a lot of medical term n chemical to understand the function and structure. I may not hate those subject because that is only thing I need to study. If I hate it I fail... Its not the first time i sit for those exam when I used to study nurse. Im still missing nurse job. I miss posting in hospital. I want to get more experience in hospital. I don't want to study inside college. I may sound crazy now. Because I feel tired of going college early and back home late.  I miss nursing course btw.

           If somebody ask me its physiotherapy is my 1st choice? I would straight answer NO. My first is always nurse. This dream is started when Im standard 6. Just love to help people. But I hate to communication wor. hahah I prefer take care of those stroke patient more. haah I know as a Professional Health Care can not be like that. There are more patient out there waiting for me in the future. Lets wait the time pass....

          I make my life so tough.Actually I can choose other easy job. But I just don't want people to look down on my standard... Don't know why I just got these feeling... I can not regret of what im choosing now. Because one day ,I will be one of the Professional Health Care out there to cure somebody too? Who know? I may not a successful person but Im trying to be..... At least Im try and fight for it. I may complain of the studies but all over I will feel everything I its worth because these let me know about more more more about ME. Human really its a complicated things but study longer I may know more than other people beside health care.

            I really don't know what problem will happen towards my life. I just wish to be a happy girl around people. Physiotherapy working hour at least will follow office hour time . I just don't wish to work more hour because that will neglect time with family and friend.. I want to spend more hour with the one i loves. But I think when both of us busy working I will still find 1 day to spend together a week at least. No matter how busy working its I also don't allow to neglect family. Because time longer everyone will  be more independent to what they do. Because  I went through these life to be a  independent children lo.

           Somehow I will jealous other friends they can be so close with their family. I means the close is can talk anything they like with their family. I just cant do it.. I think Boyfriend  know more about me than my family. Because they busy working so i also growth to be independent lo. I just don't wish the same thing happen on my future family . I will try communicate more with my future children, so they wont feel strange to talk with own parents. I just want to build a close family thats all I want....

Beach trip*12

This hari raya week is Awesome. I get to do something i like at the holiday. I get to go somewhere that I hope for it so lonnng and now finally can go to my dream place -- Beach ** I am so excited to go to beach. Somehow this beach is not the best and beautiful but all the memory i got on the beach will never forget. This is my 1st time went trip with friend. See how sad am i live life for 19 year only can go the 1st trip with friend. I admit my parents is too over already. I would never did this to my future children because I know how isit feel like. Go trip is not a bad things also. We will gain out experience more at outside. And all my friend are so good boy,good girl... We never touch any alcohol drink...

    The most scary experience is sea jump. Don't say about sea larh, even swimming pool I also don't dare to jump in.... Guess what? I did it jump in to sea. That the moment when jumping in the sea fuyooo. Even I spoil the life jacket too. The pressure jump in to sea is too high. Can you imagine i jump it 3 times in to the sea? Really a good memorable!!

   Early in the morning me n my bf wake up early to see sun rise. But unfortunately its block, we cant see sunrise at that angle... But i trust one day i will see the sunrise. Btw Sunset is freaking nice. Take pic under the sunset is the most romantic. Actually I hope more pic on the beach but just a few.. No choice coz only 1 camera with 13 people.  Feel regret to buy my camera. If it is water proof how nice is that.
Food there are pricey. Everything are pricey too. This trip  I think rm250 only enough for 3 days 2 night. I really hope to live in the beach until old . '无忧无虑'... Enjoy life there can live longer. hah

Had breakfast in the cloudy day. Rain awhile too.Luckily never ruin our day.Nasi Lemak there the best. They put alot ikan belis :) my favorite.. Mee there its suck.

We're trying to take the movie pic "You're the apple of my eye" ahah LIKE

Group pic. If without them i wont able to go beach trip:)

Sitting at the beach and let the sea hit us, Its was fun but then you realize that your pants all full with sand inside. hahah then have to clean it troublesome...

Went to snorkelling too . You will see the fish but you cant touch it. Just normal lo. Nothing special. n down there got  lot sharp rock keep slash on my pity foot.After that walk on the beach it feel more awful!!  

There sunset from Pulau Pangkor :) 

I personality like this pic much.. <3 td="td">

Does this rock look like a crocodile? 

Picture with the pulau dog :) 

SEE the Blue Sand!!

Me in the ferry. I cant stop taking pic.. coz all will be memory.

Their Van is all in Pink colour SO  pinkyy

SO Conclusion is i get A very bad bad Sun burn. All my skin is feel hot and reddish :(  

Cute right. a souvenir from there :) 

 Conclusion: I really had lot lots fun there. Going with mine another part I feel happy. We all left our happiness on the pulau. Next time will be another happiness memory beach again.:) <3 font="font">