Mid term exam finally arrive.Its 18th&19th sep. Each subject only 1 hour. Im still lazy to study for the last minute again. Something is distracting my mind while I study. I don't know how to express out the feeling. Im always home alone. Everyday went to college early in the morning have to reach at 8am when my class suppose to be start at 9am. Everyday 4.30pm after class only can go back home.I need rest about 3 to 4 hour only satisfied for my own time. I think my time is not enough to spent. I used to sleep early around 11pm or before 11pm edi. So really its a problem to go back home study with just an hour free for it.
I just wish I do very well in my mid term. I know is tough for some subject especially Anatomy& Physiology. Because a lot of medical term n chemical to understand the function and structure. I may not hate those subject because that is only thing I need to study. If I hate it I fail... Its not the first time i sit for those exam when I used to study nurse. Im still missing nurse job. I miss posting in hospital. I want to get more experience in hospital. I don't want to study inside college. I may sound crazy now. Because I feel tired of going college early and back home late. I miss nursing course btw.
If somebody ask me its physiotherapy is my 1st choice? I would straight answer NO. My first is always nurse. This dream is started when Im standard 6. Just love to help people. But I hate to communication wor. hahah I prefer take care of those stroke patient more. haah I know as a Professional Health Care can not be like that. There are more patient out there waiting for me in the future. Lets wait the time pass....
I make my life so tough.Actually I can choose other easy job. But I just don't want people to look down on my standard... Don't know why I just got these feeling... I can not regret of what im choosing now. Because one day ,I will be one of the Professional Health Care out there to cure somebody too? Who know? I may not a successful person but Im trying to be..... At least Im try and fight for it. I may complain of the studies but all over I will feel everything I its worth because these let me know about more more more about ME. Human really its a complicated things but study longer I may know more than other people beside health care.
I really don't know what problem will happen towards my life. I just wish to be a happy girl around people. Physiotherapy working hour at least will follow office hour time . I just don't wish to work more hour because that will neglect time with family and friend.. I want to spend more hour with the one i loves. But I think when both of us busy working I will still find 1 day to spend together a week at least. No matter how busy working its I also don't allow to neglect family. Because time longer everyone will be more independent to what they do. Because I went through these life to be a independent children lo.
Somehow I will jealous other friends they can be so close with their family. I means the close is can talk anything they like with their family. I just cant do it.. I think Boyfriend know more about me than my family. Because they busy working so i also growth to be independent lo. I just don't wish the same thing happen on my future family . I will try communicate more with my future children, so they wont feel strange to talk with own parents. I just want to build a close family thats all I want....
